This Monster of Mine by Shalini Abeysekara
She knows the taste of death. He'll stoke her hunger for it.
Eighteen-year-old Sarai doesn't know why someone tried to kill her four years ago, but she does know that her case was closed without justice. Hellbent on vengeance, she returns to the scene of the crime as a Petitor, a prosecutor who can magically detect lies, and is assigned to work with Tetrarch Kadra. Ice-cold and perennially sadistic, Kadra is the most vicious of the four judges who rule the land - and the prime suspect in a string of deaths identical to Sarai's attempted murder.
Certain of his guilt, Sarai begins a double life: solving cases with Kadra by day and plotting his ruin by night. But Kadra is charming and there's something alluring about the wrath he wields against the city's corruption. So when the evidence she finds embroils her in a deadly political battle, Sarai must also fight against her attraction to Kadra - because despite his growing hold on her heart, his voice matches the only memory she has of her assailant...
A dazzling Ancient Rome-inspired romantasy debut, This Monster of Mine is a bloodbath of manipulation, deception, and forbidden love.
This 2025 release absolutely needs to be on your TBR list. Abeysekara's debut novel, This Monster of Mine, is wholly original, gripping, and fierce.
The story takes place in Edessa, a city loosely based on Ancient Rome. Sarai moves there to uncover who attempted to murder her when she was only 14 years old. She was tossed off a tower, and the head trauma removed most of her memories. Everyone believes that Sarai (known as the Sidran Tower Girl) is dead, and because she's been healed from her injuries with a new appearance and face, she can investigate without her assailant knowing her identity.
Meanwhile, while Sarai searches for the truth, she becomes a Petitor assigned to the deadly Tetrarch Kadra. Essentially, she acts a type of prosecutor with magical abilities who assists the Tetrarchs in serving justice. However, Sarai faces constant danger, as someone is killing off Petitors one by one. And by investigating what happened to the The Sidran Tower Girl, she puts an ever larger target on her back.
This intricate, original plot kept me on my toes for the entire novel. I loved how Abeysekara portrays Sarai's anger and determination, and I enjoyed solving the mystery alongside her and her allies. Moreover, the romance in this book is wonderful — intense, exciting, and tender.
Kadra, Sarai's Tetrarch, is a brutal, enigmatic figure who may or may not have been involved in her fall. Sarai must grapple with whether she can trust him. The story also features a vibrant cast, including other Petitors and Tertrachs. I loved Anek and bitterly disliked Cisure and Harrion, Sarai's fellow Petitors.
The novel's strongest quality is its portrayal of an intricate magical and legal system that still hides corruption, classism, and evil. Sarai and Kadra attempt to serve justice fairly, if viciously, and must navigate a system riddled with bullies, oppressors, and crooked businessmen.
Overall, This Monster of Mine is a highly satisfying romantasy — dark, clever, bloody, and immersive. I hope to read more from Abeysekara, either in a sequel (perhaps Cisure's redemption story?) or in a new venture.
*I received an e-ARC for free in exchange for an honest review*
Publication Date: April 3rd, 2025
4.5/5 stars